NEW HOUSE!

We are SO excited about the big change in our life - moving to our brand new condo in Heber City! There is a special place in my heart for Heber, and part of me is relieved to finally be moving "home". The other part is so ridiculously excited about our new place! I feel like we're finally settling down and moving forward.

We got the keys on Tuesday and today we went to take some pictures of the place before we move in. It's got 3 bedrooms, one of which we'll make into our office. The other will be a spare bedroom that will turn into a kid's room someday (hopefully). There are two beautiful bathrooms, and the kitchen is furnished with absolutely gorgeous stainless steel appliances! It was just barely built and I love that no one has lived in it before us!

So for your enjoyment - pictures of our new home! I'll post more when we get moved in! There are more pics on facebook.

Been a While...

I just realized it's been almost 2 months since I updated this thing. Life got really busy once I started working again! But things are on an upward slope and that is super exciting!

First things first: Scott and I are moving to Heber! We found a fantastic little starter home and we'll be moving in a matter of weeks! We just need to get everything finalized and we'll be on our way to being homeowners! I'll post some pics as soon as we get settled! It will be really nice to be living in Heber again, and most of all, it will be SO nice to live in a brand new place that has never been lived in before! We're really excited to get out of Salt Lake and be closer to my family. And we'll be living right across the street from the brand new high school, so if my dream of working there comes true, I won't have far to commute!

We've had a lot of fun the past couple months. We spent some time at Swiss Days, where Scott was handed the job of Risk Management Guy (aka the Brute Squad) and he had a blast making sure everyone was staying in line.

We also went to see the Sheepdog competition at Soldier Hollow. It turned out to be way interesting! Those dogs are CRAZY SMART and so cute. I really enjoyed seeing them do their thing. We spent some time in my dad's garden harvesting veggies and then eating them!! I loved it - getting into the plants and finding the best ones to pick, then washing them off and cutting them up to eat - I don't know what it is about home grown produce, but it always tastes SO good!!

We also went camping with our friends the Andersons and their ridiculously adorable baby boy. Well he's almost 2, so not so much a baby, but he's SO much fun. And the Andersons are some of the world's coolest people. I didn't realize until we got back that I only took like 2 pictures, and they were of Scott folding the tent up. But I did take plenty of pics of the wind generators on the way up to SF Canyon...

We look forward to what the future has to offer- I just can't wait till we get into our new place so we can start over in a new ward, a new home, and a new town. Well, new to Scott, anyway. Bring on the change!!

A couple pictures of our summer - more can be found on facebook.

Remembering...

I can't believe how fast time flies. Tomorrow is July 23, 2009. Exactly one year ago, on July 23, 2008, the world lost one of the most amazing people that has ever lived. That person was my brother-in-law Sean.

Sean was amazing for so many reasons. He was a true Superman. Sean was diagnosed with cancer when he was 20 years old. It began as skin cancer, and it was caught fairly early. The surgeries and treatments he endured left him with painful scars, but gave him 9 more years of life. He lived cancer free for the next few years, and met my sister in December 2004. They instantly fell in love. Their relationship was one to be envied by many. Sean was so respectful of her needs, so loving, so selfless, so happy and his positive spirit and high energy were so contagious.

About a year later, Sean's cancer came back. It showed up in various parts of his body, settling mostly in his lungs. The Hunstman was able to run new treatments on him, and after a couple of months, he was good as new. Sean was offered a job as a dispatch officer for Summit County, and they sponsored him to attend the Academy - to pass POST (Peace Officer Standard Training) to become a corrections officer. Shortly before beginning POST, more tumors were found, this time on his brain. He had surgery on his brain to remove the tumors, and worked so hard to pass the academy with flying colors. His graduation was very moving, as Sean had realized his dream - to be a police officer. He was the only person the Academy had ever known that had passed POST between brain surgeries.

Two weeks later, he had another brain surgery.

Two months later, he was gone.

Sean's biggest dreams in life were 1- To marry the love of his life in the temple, which he did on Dec 9, 2006. 2 - To become a dad, which he did the instant he came into Amy and Jasen's life. Jasen has never referred to Sean as anything but his dad. 3 - To become a police officer, which he did in May 2008.

Before he died, Sean said the one thing I pray I am able to say before I go. He said, "I know where I'm going, and I know I'm worthy to go there." Sean's life was dedicated to living righteously. And he did it better than anyone I have ever known.

There is no question in my mind why God decided to take Sean home at the age of 29. There are far greater things in far greater places that Sean is doing now, and I'm sure of that. The world is a lesser place without him, and our lives are a little dimmer, a little sadder, and a little less exciting, but I look forward to seeing him again someday.

Sean, we miss you SO much. The world just isn't the same without you.

Embracing the Saleswoman in Me!

This is just a quick post to let you all know how much I LOVE my job!!

It's crazy, but I have quickly learned to love my job! I feel bad for ever thinking that I would have to grudgingly endure it until something better came along!

I guess I have a little bit of sales genetics thanks to my dad, and I've been able to really embrace the saleswoman in myself! And I love it! I love talking to people, telling them all about what I have to offer them, and making the sale! And most of all, I LOVE the commission!!! I get a base wage, but I also get 20% commission on every sale! I wake up in the morning and I am actually excited to go to work! Wooo!

Just thought I'd let ya'll know!

:D

My Ambivalence...

Well, it finally happened. I am officially employed after 8 months of not working. However, I am incredibly ambivalent about life right now, despite finally having a second income.

The job I got is working for the Phone Directories Company (www.pdcpages.com) as an Advertising Consultant. It sounds fancy, but basically I work with businesses to set up and design their yellow page ads in the PDC Phonebook. The PDC Phonebook is the one with the pretty cover - and it's pretty much nationwide. If you are curious about the PDC phone book, look through your stacks of unused phone books, and if you have one that has a pretty picture on the front, that is who I work for. It's a good job, the money is decent and it's not stressful. I don't plan on making a career out of it, but it's REALLY nice to have a job after all this time.

Here is why I am feeling ambivalent. When I lost my job back in November, I never really got any answers as to why I was let go. I was told many different things, from budget cuts to my "heart not being in the work", and I have harbored some VERY bad feelings for the woman that fired me. Being the kind of person I am, I have never hated anyone. I've disliked people, sure, but never given much thought to it. And if someone made me mad or betrayed me, I didn't tend to hold a grudge too long. That is, until November 24, 2008. My dreams turned to nightmares almost every night, and I sort of lost focus on what life was really about. The anger and hatred I held for this individual brought me down and held me there, making me far less of a person than I could ever want to be. I started to really dislike the way I felt, and I would try to do things to put it out of my mind, but it would always creep back in.

I LOVED my job. I absolutely loved every minute of being a social worker. I loved going on home visits. I loved writing up court reports and assessments. I LOVED going to court. And more than anything, I loved seeing the tiny steps of progression made by my clients. Losing that job made me feel like I lost the world. And the worst part about it, is that I'm sure this woman that fired me promptly forgot about me the next day. I'm sure she had no regrets and couldn't have cared less about what might happen to me. I became quite depressed. The only thing that kept me sane was Scottie. He only ever encouraged me, letting me know that things would get better. I can honestly say that the past 8 months have been the hardest 8 months of my life. I knew I wouldn't be able to dispose of my hatred for my former boss until I had another job - something to do, something to keep my mind off past events and focus on the future.

I finally feel like this dark cloud of hatred and depression is lifting. It's a really great feeling. I don't know how long it will take before I finally let go completely, or if I ever will. But I feel like a big step has been taken, and that's always the hardest part.

Have you ever taken a step back, looked at your life and just said, "How the HECK did I get HERE?" It's a question I feel like I ask myself way too much. The good things in my life are REALLY good. Scottie, for example, is way more than I could have asked for in a husband. He's absolutely incredible. And I am so thankful to have him. I'm also very thankful for my ability to learn, to make friends and be social, and my overall health. However, it feels like the things that go wrong, REALLY go wrong. Sometimes I just feel like I'm standing still in a world of people moving at super speed. And I don't really know what to do with that.

I guess we're not meant to understand life, or why things happen the way they do, but I can't help but always want to, espcially as I get older. The plan I had for my life when I was young went out the window years ago. I guess I should just stop making plans for myself period.

When I was 17, if asked where I saw myself in 10 years, I would have said this:
-I would have a college degree in either communications or business management.
-I would have at least two or three kids, and I'd be a stay at home mom.
-I'd be married to a man that made truck loads of money at a great job.
-I'd live in some other state besides Utah, in a big house, with nice cars.
-I'd be well on my way to building the homeless shelter I've dreamed of building since I was 14 years old.

Now I'm 27, and here is how my life is drastically different than I planned:
-I have a college degree in Psychology, working on a Masters in School Counseling
-I don't have kids, and it's very unlikely that I'll ever have my own. But we plan on adopting.
-I am married to a man that makes just enough money for us to pay the bills, and while his career path is very admirable, he'll never make truck loads of cash.
-I not only live in Utah, but in Utah's capital city.
-My homeless shelter is still a design on the back of a church program.

I'm scared and excited to see how things will be in another 10 years.

It's Anniversary Time!

Yesterday Scottie and I celebrated our third anniversary! Three years!!! It's SO crazy how fast time flies! So for our anniversary, we didn't plan much because Scott had work from 7 am till 3 pm and then I had to go to school at 6. But it actually turned out to be a GREAT day!!

On Monday, while Scott was at work, I went out and bought a frame for his Red Jumpsuit Apparatus poster that he got signed by the band. But when I got home, I realized the frame I got was WAY too big, so I had to improvise! I got an old vinyl record, put the signed CD jacket on top of the record, and put it in the frame with the poster. See the finished product below!

Then that night, before our anniversary, I snuck out after Scott had fallen asleep and put brand new floor mats in his truck. He's been needing them for a while, so I took the opportunity to get them for him! I made a card for him and left it in the truck too. Cheesy, I know, to make a card, but I couldn't find any at the store that said what I wanted to say.

He was so cute, when he came home from work at 3, he brought 3 long stem roses for me, one for every year we've been married. For some reason he was trying to convince me that he forgot our anniversary, but I knew he was just up to something. Every holiday/anniversary/birthday he always tries to do something sneaky so he can surprise me with something special. I had to leave for class, and he said he was going to a movie with a friend.

Right before class my sister came in with a huge edible arrangement and a balloon from Scottie! The edible arrangement is BEAUTIFUL - with all kinds of fruit fashioned to look like a flower bouquet, but it's fantastic because you can eat it!! I thought it was so thoughtful of him. And SO yummy!

My professor let me go at 7:30, instead of staying until 10, which was fantastic! Scottie and I went to Outback for a nice steak dinner, and then we were going to the theater but we decided to redbox a movie instead. We got Fired Up, which was REALLY funny! We had a really great night just being together, which I feel like we don't get to do enough.

Scott is SUCH an amazing husband. He is everything I could ever ask for. It's been such a wonderful three years, and I am so happy to have the rest of eternity with him!!!

Godspeed This Letter...

I always feel really patriotic from Memorial Day all the way through the end of August. Memorial Day is an awesome holiday, and this year we spent some time in the cemetary remembering those we've lost, especially Sean. He wasn't a soldier, per se, but he fought his own battles. My heart has been so full lately, and then Scott and I discovered this song after we saw The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus in concert on Friday. It really touched my heart, and I feel like it expresses emotions that only a soldier can feel. I decided I would make this slideshow/movie as a tribute to the brave men and women that keep our country free. Enjoy!