Nothingness

So this morning I woke up and thought I had experienced a miracle! I could SEE! I came out from the bedroom and could see the tv from the couch which I haven't been able to experience since I was 10. Well, as it turns out, I had simply fallen asleep with my contacts in, and now I have a terrible headache.

Yesterday I thought I would be charitable. We had new neighbors moving in upstairs and they had a u-haul full of boxes. It's an older couple (not like elderly but just older....haha) and the man was doing all the work. I offered to help, not really thinking about what I was getting myself into. Because halfway through the process it started to snow. And I was only wearing a Tshirt and jeans. When we finally finished and I came inside, my skin burned like the dickens and not even the hottest cup of hot chocolate warmed me up. I woke up this morning with a terrible cold. If I died today, would I get a one way ticket straight to Heaven? Ugh. I hope so. I guess it gave me a whole new meaning of selfless service.



If you haven't noticed already, this blog is titled Scott and Alison. But really I just get on here and ramble about random stuff that doesn't really even interest myself. I kind of just get in the stream of consciousness mode and whatever is in my mind comes out through my fingertips and there it is. In a way it's kind of theraputic. Kind of nice.



So here's a little adoption update: We will be starting our home study in May, so that come June, we will be ready to apply. That means we could have a baby as quicky as December! I can't imagine a better Christmas present! The only preference we have is right now we really want a boy. We don't really have a preference on ethnicity. I am just excited to actually have a child of our own. I had another doctor's appointment on Friday, and at my followup appointment we will have a better idea of what's preventing me from getting pregnant. Right now it could be anything, so it will be nice to narrow it down and also to find out if there is going to be a possibility of having our own children. But of course we are going to adopt, because we both REALLY want to. I have wanted to adopt since I was a teenager.



I found all my old journals from middle school up to my mission, and it's been really interesting to read all of them. From my plans for the future to boys I liked, to friends I had and things that happened, I realize just how much I have changed in the last 10 years or so. My life now is completely different from how I'd planned it, but I wouldn't change a thing. Well, except of course my body, but that'll never be how I want it until after I die! haha



I'm really grateful for the friends I've had throughout the years. Each one of them has played a vital role in my life, one that without which I wouldn't be who I am today. I don't think any of them know just how much they all mean to me, especially because I'm so terrible at keeping in touch. That's something I always vow to work on, but I know I probably won't. So I apologize for that.



Okay well there's a really ridiculous movie on right now that's distracting me from writing. It's the kind of movie that you can't help but watch, even though at the same time it makes you want to stab yourself with a dull rusted spoon. I'm sure you know what I mean.